I struggle with feeling worth, I feel like because I am bad at school, that I can’t have a job of value.
I have issues with people pleasing, I will run myself sick and near death to make someone happy. If I can do ANYTHING (no matter how foolish) to make someone what I think, happy, I will do it. I am a sucker for knowing I am the cause of a smile. Really, its not a good trait. It gets me in trouble.
I hurt when I am told things like “well, if you where skinnier you might be able to…” insert stupid crap here. It hurts to not feel like people think I am attractive (yeah, its shallow, I know). The answer “youre married, it shouldnt matter” sucks as an answer as well.
I want desperatly to be a mom, I know its normal, but I am frustrated with my body (no lectures needed here please and thanks)
I hate that the world makes it near impossible for a woman to stay at home.
I feel like I am a ‘bad person’ often, because I feel like the things I CARE about, are stupid and I should worry about things more important.
Did I mention I am a people pleaser?
I feel like I am not a good enough writer, because I obviously dont have a job as a journalist (my dream job)